Dream Silently

Dream Silently is officialy open for business. Heh, well, I wish I were making money off it, but that’s never going to happen, now is it?

Welcome old readers and followers, welcome new readers and followers. Please bare with me, I am still working on some of the sections. And I’m not completely satisfied with the layout, but I’m new, and therefore developing. It’s to be expected. Please contact me if you find anything odd, like broken links or a glitch. I’ve learned alot, but still have a way to go before I understand all the ins and outs of Wordpress that meets my satisfaction.

What are my goals and ambitions for this place? I really don’t have a clue. I do want to raise a point: who doesn’t have some spot on the web they call their own that clearly has no point or goal?

So, welcome once again! And don’t forget to update your links!

If I had to pick a franchise that hooked me to the RPG world of video games, final fantasy would be it. Just like a book series, it has it’s bad games (IX bleh), and it’s excellant games (VII or VI or etc). The trailer for Final Fantasy 13 has been featured at E3. See here. Click on the trailer on the May 8th listing. I couldn’t get the first one to load.

It looks freaking sweet. And its also suppose to be released with the PS3. I’m so excited. Not to mention, another female heroine? ABOUT FREAKING TIME! *claps hands*

On the flip side, FFXII is suppose to be released for the PS2 later this year. Hopefully soon. It’s another game I’ve been looking forward too. I mean, check out one of the sweet character designs. *points to left* The game play also looks interesting and different from the typical turn based system. See here. This one is based on the world created in FF: Tactics. The name escapes me at the moment. There is an unofficial site here.

And let us not forget the expansions being added to FFVII: Before Crisis, Crisis Core, and the Dirge of Cerberus. Alot of things to look forward too, let’s hope square isn’t overdoing it and the games don’t fail to meet expectations.

Know where I could find a few? A few buff boys? Young and tasty preferably? Kidding kidding.

I’ve done alot. All I have left is the kitchen to pack. My coworker is coming to give me a hand next weekend to help me with the furniture I can’t move myself. And you don’t know how grateful I am to have Joe’s truck still. Even though the story with that is a catastrophe in and of itself. I have one more load and that’ll be it. If I had been using my car? It would of taken me triple the amount of time.

So, have you missed me?

At work, I have come very close to murdering CB. My gawd, do not make me go back out into the field with her. Please, please! Alright, so I’m the engineer, right? And she openly admits she’s a biologist without survey experience, right? What does she do everytime I give her an instruction? Question me. And she asks the same question a trillion different ways! On top of that? When I say no. It’s NO. I am not surveying some guy’s property line without the proper equipment. I can’t help it if you didn’t bother to ask me if you had the right stand for the transit. NO. Not doing it. Why? Because if I’m off, who would get held liable? Me. We might be government, but we’re still vulnerable to civil suits. So stop asking why not and just take my answer dammit.

As it is, we AREN’T suppose to be doing that kind of work. The client is suppose to higher PROFESSIONL SURVEYERS. And she even muttered under her breath that JH and JO would think she was crazy for doing this.

That was thursday. I’m not even going to touch upon tuesday. Ann confirmed my feelings though on the matter. And said I did good. I’m so gonna miss her.

Great news? It’s official! I have a degree. No matter how many times I say it, though, I can’t believe it. This has been a very long 5 years. Unlike high school though? I can ask, “what did I learn?” And clock off on my fingers a dozen or so items. And that… feels good because it proves it wasn’t a waste of my time.

So, in closing, some more images:

Poise

Butterfly Summon

Hopefully, I’ll be able to sit around and relax for the most part next week. And catch up with people! I feel so alone without being on the computer regularly.

..okay, so that’s just a little sad.

Things are beginning to happen quicker and quicker. No matter what I try to do, I can’t stop or slow the inevitable. I’m leaving. I’m leaving a placed I’ve lived at for ten years now. I’m leaving familiarity and security.

I’m going to go live with my mother.

I make it sound like its awful, don’t I? I haven’t seen any of my family in over 3 years. I think that’s where alot of my anxiety is stemming from. Of course, each day that I work on going through things and pack, the more that anxiety bubbles. Proof? I couldn’t sleep last night and ended up going to bed at 5 in the morning. I’ve made myself get back up five hours later to where my butt out and crash in the evening. When I tried to fall asleep last night, my mind kept roving around like a wild animal.

But I don’t think its just anxiety. I think some of it is mixed with excitement. Yes, I am leaving familiarity and security, but I’m embarking on an adventure into the unknown. Isn’t that something I’ve always wanted? Always said I needed? My mind keeps mulling over the endless possibilities and then picking out the ones I enjoy the best.

Anyways… update time!

Most of the downstairs has been packed and half of the loft has been packed and shifted to downstairs. I’ve spent my time getting rid of non-essential things, either tossing or donating it to charity. I’ve also been selling things on ebay, trying to pocket some extra emergency cash. I’m planning on grabbing a storage unit this week. I wonder how much my anxiety will jump then?

As far as grades stand, I’m still waiting on my Timber class. It’ll either make or break me. It was the last of my tech electives that I needed and I am not the greatest structural engineer. Based on that, I’ve decided that I’m going to start looking into Graduate programs for my Masters. And, here’s the thing, I always wanted to dive deeper into Geotechinical Engineering, but now I’m thinking Environmental (despite the chemistry ~_~). It reminds me of being back in preschool and being asked, “What do you want to grow up to be?” Back then, it was usually a teacher.

…which, is suppose to be my second career. That’s why I’m trying to stay with Civil Service. I’ve got 6+ years in and you can retire at about 20 years. What I wanted to do was retire at about 40 from being an engineer, get my teaching associates, and then teach until I die. What do I want to teach? Math. :D

More news, Joe got recycled and will be at Ft. Benning for another month. I am not surprised. He had a horrible cough still when he left and died during the PT. Then, the silly boy didn’t bring his cell with him (he was pretty confident he’d make it through the first round) and couldn’t remember my home phone. So, he kept calling my cell from a phone booth, leaving me messages, trying to get a hold of me. The thing is, my cell gets crappy service at home because of Murphey Dome (a really, really, really big hill), so my phone never rang. But, later that week, he got me at work, which really made my day.

He’s being so supportive and so encouraging about the different things I’ve been looking at and thinking about. It makes me love him more.

So, in closing? Some more fractal images.

Squares

Spring

Winter

Autumn

Summer

So in some ways, I guess Karnov was right :P Oh! One last thing, if you haven’t voted, please do! I’ll be doing postwork on the winning image. The vote stands at: battle.jpg (image 1) - 3; poise.jpg (image 2) - 2; battle2.jpg (image 3) - 1 . Thanks to those who have voted!

Appetizer

From which country(s) are some (or all) of your ancestors?

France, Germany, Pre-United States (Cherokee and Cajun), England

Soup

How would you describe your sneeze?

Quiet and petite unless something’s really tickling my nose.

Salad

What is the last thing you cleaned?

My kitchen floor… it so needed.

Main Course

Who made the strongest first impression on you?

When I first met Joe. He made my mind all befuddled and confused. I still remember that good bye kiss. He said I was a good kisser. I think it was actually reverse.

Dessert

Name one thing you want to accomplish in your lifetime.

Reach personal satisfaction. I do alot of different things, but I don’t concentrate to become good at just one thing. I think if I did, I probably would be extremely satisfied with myself.

Do you wish to dine too?

If you have, please speak to me so I can read yours too.

I just thought this one was neat. ^_^ Before I close, I need a vote, choose the picture you like best, or if there isn’t a picture you like, choose one that you think would be easiest to improve on. I’m playing with lighting -_- :