Dream Silently

So, it’s noon… which reminds me, I really need to change the date settings for this site hahaha…

I’m going to go get ready for a job fair here in a few minutes. There is a contract being set up for something going on at the Air Force Academy. They are looking for people in my area of expertise. The company is outsourcing the job. They’re called CSC. Although, they’re website didn’t tell me too much about what was going on, it did give me an idea on what they were all about. I just have to take an updated resume with me and then off I go to feel out an application.

I actually went out and bought a pair of slacks and nice shoes and a shirt that doesn’t make me look all grungy. This is certainly scary… very scary…

Not much has been going on. I’m working on several things to keep me occupied. Going to the gym too… though I don’t know if I like Peterson’s gym any better than the SRC. The school gym has alot more open feel too it. The AFB’s gym feels kind of closed and constricted. But at least I get to go there for free, so I won’t complain too much about it.

I feel like I haven’t wanted to be on the computer much, or when I’m on the computer, I have no desire to be communicable. I’m still reading things though and I’m working on a new layout for this site. Heh, when aren’t I working on a new layout?

Krome has been encouraging for me over her site and I’ve decided I’m going to do what I’ve been wanting to do, seeing as I am still jobless and need to keep myself occupied that doesn’t require money. I will be opening another site as a subdomain to this site (remember, keeping things with as little expense as possible) called Shadowed Beauty. There I will be uploading tubes of my work for those wanting to use things in their own designs.

There will be free ones and then for those who choose to donate, they will have access to special items. All things except for the donation area will be linkware. If individuals wish to use the free ones without a link, then they’ll require to pay something like a buck to take the link off. I’ll be including different types of webgraphics (I love making seemless tiles for pattern backgrounds), avatars for use on other sites (these will be non-linkware), and I’m thinking I might add free layouts for those who use blogger and eventually wordpress. There will also be layouts for those who run general purpose sites and want to use interesting images.

The difference between mine and Krome’s Ill Dream is that I will only be providing things using my own images. Currently… lol … I’m trying not to copy you Krome ::whistles:: And I also haven’t much desire to do commission work as I kind of feel for this particular thing I do for fun and when the creative muse grabs me by the hair and drags me caveman style to the computer.

Anyways, beyond that, the step siblings went home on Saturday. My sweetheart called me early Sunday morning and reassured me that things were fine. He had a medical condition (now healed) and got sent home from Ranger School. He and his unit are at West Point training cadets on… what sounded like obstacle courses. He didn’t sound very happy and I wish I could of talked to him more. Joe is not one to have a private conversation in a van full of other soldiers.

I miss him. And being here at Mom’s feels frustrating. Granted, her and her husband are so helpful right now. During our trip though… which I’m going to continue writing about this week, she got Lithium Poisoning. I actually took her pills away from her when I saw how she was functioning. I don’t want to go into great depth about it now, but I will later when I describe more of the trip. Let’s just say she had to go to the ER and her level was a 1.4, which is above the safe zone for lithium for those who don’t know. She’s doing better now though.

I have pictures almost processed from our trip too. I’ve just have to upload them which will be a pain because I’m on a modem. Takes forever ::cries::

Well, these are just a few of the things on my mind. I’ll end for now because I’m itching to work continue work on that layout as well as start setting things up for Shadowed Beauty.

~~LOVE!!!~~

This last week has been an up and down rollercoaster. Let’s see if I can summarize it in a few steps:

1. My rat, Sparkz, died thursday afternoon. This has pretty much killed my desire to be a living individual for the last 5 days.

2. I cannot get a hold of Joe and I’m starting to feel paranoid because of that. No, he’s not in Ranger School at the moment. A story for another time.

3. It’s hotter than hell here or what I would imagine Hell to be like if I believed in it. This is also what caused my rat to die, contrary to plausible arguments my mother has presented to me. You see, there’s no AC units in these places, but I had finally convinced this set of parents of the need. Considering, I cannot sleep in a room that feels like a baking oven. Unfortunately, Sparkz didn’t last long enough for that.

4. I’m sick. Coughing crud that won’t come up and tried to stop my breathing this morning. It royally sucks.

5. I’m going to hurt my step sister because of her youth and her detached way of ignoring my instructions when it comes to the window. I also am currenly blaming her for Sparkz death because she hadn’t closed the freaking window during the evening WHEN IT IS COOLEST DURING THE DAY, she would probably be romping around in the new cage I had just boughten her the day before she passed on.

So, I’ve mostly been sleeping, depressed, oh and I did I mention it was that time of the month?

Seeing as I’m starting to come out of my stupor, got my computer running again, and have internet connection on it, I should be around more now…

Hope things are well for everyone.

My computer is still not quite set up yet. Mom and her husband want to get me my own phone line, so I have no idea when it’ll actually be capable of internet. I hope soon. I hate having to scroll the screen over to look at y’all’s sites. Not to mention, the graphic card on this thing, makes everything pixally and crappy looking (when I know its not). Anyways, here’s part 1. It’s a long story, so it’s easier to post it in parts.

Day 1

Mom flew in that night and I went and picked her up. She was wired because flying, for some reason, raised her anxiety. I almost didn’t even recoginize her. Hey, it’s been almost 4 years since I’ve seen any of my family. The only way I did realize it was her was because Joe (her husband, not my sweety) told me she was carrying a purse with a big D on it. One thing is for sure, she seemed so much better from the last time I saw her.

We went back to the hotel and she kept me up most of that morning before falling asleep. That next day, I handled a bunch of different errands and, well, wore Mom out. Ooops.

Day 2

My sweety’s truck got sent and what a hassle that was. First, he sent me the orders sending him to Ft. Benning. I needed the form that stated his home of origin. So, the vehicle transfer place called the recruiting office (this was a few days earlier) to try and get a copy of his orders from them. Didn’t recognize his last name because the guy that was helping me wouldn’t listen to me on how to say it. Instead he kept spelling it. Joe has an odd last name, but, for his protection, I won’t be stating it here.

Anyways, the recruiting office said he’d been recruited down in South Anchorage. WTF?? He signed up here in fairbanks! I ended up going over there and as soon as I was there, said his last name properly, they knew exactly who I was. Sgt. Erickson (one of the nicest dudes I’ve ever met, and cute to boot too) helped me out. And of course, couldn’t resist the urge to try and recruit me.

I got a memorandum and then took that over and got the truck done over and shipped. That was a major relief.

Day 3

The trip actually begins today. We loaded up the car and took off towards the border. I drove to Tok where we stopped at the visitor’s center and looked around. Mom took over driving until we reached the border. We got through with no hassle and so, CANADA watch out!!

This day was mostly uneventful. I got to drive through tar though… Canada’s Transportation Department does things odd. Or maybe it was just the province of Yukon that does things odd.

We ended up stopping for the night at Destruction Bay. Note to self, look up Destruction Bay and find out why it’s called that. It isn’t connected to the ocean in anyway. We stopped at a dinky motel (there were two motels and like two restraunts and that’s it). As we were going over to the restraurant, Mom pointed to the front passanger’s tire and said it looked like it was going flat. I said, “Nahhh, that’s just how it’s positioned.”

*gives everyone the silent look*

We had dinner, went back to our room and went to bed.

To be continued tomorrow :D Can you guess part of what happened on Day 4?

Sort of… I just wanted to post something. I will give a summary tomorrow probably. I need to set up my own computer. I love my mother, but this thing is a dinosaur and the screen is way too small in my opinion.