Dream Silently

Suprisingly, this new theme didn’t take me that long to do. I started it Sunday morning… and, for the most part, finished this evening. I guess that means I’m getting the hang of coding for wordpress.

I know the pic is on the risque side, but I have a love for Luis Royo’s work. And, well, he does alot of erotic fantasy. I don’t even know how to describe how his work effects me. The human body is just beautiful, in all it’s shapes and sizes. And strangely, his women captivate me. I almost feel like a teenager staring at models in Vogue. Yes, I’m odd.

The smilies come from Beccary. I’m actually working on my own set, but, sometimes, it’s just easier to borrow from others. And I find I get irritated doing pixel art. It’s so tedious.

Also, some of the links aren’t working purposely. They’ll lead you back to hear because it’s two sites not ready to open yet: Shadowed Beauty and a soon to come site called Whispers (where I’ll be moving all my writing too).

So, I will be out of town for the rest of the week, but I don’t think I’ll be internet deprived. But, if I’m out in the field all day, I’m probably going to want to go straight to bed. I’m staying in Winnemucca (isn’t that a weird name?) at the Winner’s Casino. Fun fun… no I will not be playing the slot machines.

And tomorrow is going to be an extremely long day, so I need to skip off to bed. I’ll hopefully update come this saturday

My eyes are going crossed from staring at data numbers that KL let build up over the last few months. Heh, yeah, I’m the grunt so it ends up all dumped on me. At least I’m away from the lab for a while… but, I feel strangely alone.

Me? Crave social situations? The thought confuses me.

Sunday was relaxing. I lazed around most of the day, working on the various projects that I have interests in. I’m trying to finish yet another blanket for a certain someone’s birthday. I don’t think I’m going to make it. The pattern is alot more complicated than the previous two blankets I crochetted earlier this summer (pics coming soon). I keep screwing up a row and have to pull it all back out.

Beyond that, nothing else is really happening.

I think I’m going to be internet deprived later this week. It looks as if I’m headed to a place about 3 hours west of here to work up some soils investigations for a future project. Yay… I get to go dig holes (and not with a shovel, with a backhoe!). KL is going to go out with me the first day to show me the site/where to dig/etc and then I’m on my own.

That’s a scary thought as well.

Anyways, here’s my attempt to get back into the habit of posting regularly again.

::sighs:: I miss Joe.

Yes, be prepared for a very cynical post… or at least in the beginning. And if you truly do exist, don’t take this wrong, consider it my attempt to draw you out. And also to warn you that our mothers are gossiping.

So, the story begins:

When my mother was pregnant with me, she had a very good friend who was also pregnant with her first. Now, don’t get me wrong, their still friends, but I don’t know if I would classify them as good friends. Of course, many of you know how most friendships work. When a friend needs you the most, that’s when they’ll talk to you (a majority of the time) and then leave you for a while until they need you again.

Anyways, my mother’s friend was gifted a son. He was born before I was. Then I was born. And thus, the plotting began.

These mothers’ dreams? If you can’t figure it out, let me go grab the frying pan out of the kitchen. You guessed it, that we secretly fell in love, got married, and lived happily ever after.

However, after a few years, the mothers lost touch for a pretty long length of time. It was my mother’s friend who reconnected them, having seen it in a tarot spread (or some such malarchy). From there, both mothers encouraged their children to write each other, etc.

And I’ll be honest, my mother’s friend’s son never struck me as someone that was greatly interested in either myself or my sister. And if you truly are supposedly “obsessed” then you’ve definitely surprised me. And maybe, just slightly, creeped me out. Even though, I know I have lurkers (all I have to do is study the IP addresses logged by my webcounter and then run a WHOIS search to figure out who’s who and from where and discard the robot crawls)… I really don’t want to know what to think.

So this is why I’m writing this… to figure out if you’re really real or if our mothers have mixed me up with some other girl. Or they might be greatly exaggerating things (my mother is pretty good at that…). Just send me a note, say “yeah, you caught me… now I’m totally embarressed and I muttered ‘ah shit’ when I read this entry…”

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So, to try and summarize my latest bits of time without making this overly long. Work this week was overly amusing. Big Daddy was out from Denver and he wasn’t pleased with some of the things he’d been hearing (nothing to do with me thank gawd). We now have a schedule set for who has to work what weekend so that people don’t end up overworked. Sure… KE is going to follow it. He already made several extra people come in this weekend. ::rolls eyes::

Then, KE, KL, and G got stuck in a really long conference because of some ‘he said, she said’ crap. G can be a gossip so you have to watch what you say around her (not that she’s a bad person, she’s actually kind of cool and has been very helpful at least with me when I don’t understand something/policy/etc). And if you complain about something to her and then don’t speak up for yourself, she’ll do it for you. Hence, the watching.

Something strange I’ve noticed, KE will make sure to ask KL if he can use me with me right there. ::shrugs:: Who knows what that’s all about. As it is, I’m in the lab when KL doesn’t have anything for me to do.

Friday found me at the Stray Dog downing beers with coworkers. Or trying to, I’m such a two beer sally. I was there for a while before I took off. ::sighs:: I was the only girl. Sucks. S needs to become legal sooner than february!

Today found me at the Elko County horse races. Heehee, I’ve never gambled before, nor have I ever seen horse races. I know, Joe has lectured me multiple times about gambling addiction (I love you honey), and I behaved myself. I actually did quite well. I broke even lol . So, basically, I’d bet, win, spend some of the winnings, lose, then spend more of the winnings and would win again. And once I got the hang of it, I was really good at picking out the decent horses.

And my gawd those were beautiful creatures. I actually wish I had my camera, I would have taken pictures for y’all.

And that brings me to now, a little wired for no apparent reason. But I’m putting that energy to good use: trying to get Shadowed Beauty ready. I’ve had to remake all of my tubes because of an accident. These are actually brand new and have nothing featured from my previous art (fractal and digital). At the quality that I’m rendering these images at, it takes nearly 3-4 hours to complete.

::shakes finger:: Some of you planning on using my work had better shower me with a lot of love and affection. :P

In other news, Joe leaves once more for Ranger School tomorrow. If he makes it into the first session (that is if I don’t hear from him about wednesday), I’ll start posting letters at Letters to Joe. These aren’t the ones I’m going to be sending him, but will be different (mostly to amuse him when he gets back from training). And, yeah, I plan to make it as mushy as possible heehee

First, Bryce 5.0 is being offered FREE for a limited time at Daz. For those of you who don’t know, Bryce is a 3d software great for rendering landscape scenes. You can also export things created in Daz and create better scenes in Bryce. If you’re familiar with Vue, it’s the same thing basically. Also, if you join Artzone and are active in your profile, you can get a MAJOR discount. That is, Bryce 6.0 can be purchased for ONLY $20 (and only if you have bryce 5.0 or later). That’s over a hundred dollar savings. Yes, I’ve already completed the deal.

And now, a cop out entry until I can concentrate on updating you all on my life better:
(I’ve bolded the ones that I’m guilty of)

You Know You Grew Up In The 80’s or Early 90’s If:

1. You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton
4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.

6. You owned those lil’ Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls. (never owned, but I was familiar with them)

7. You know that “WOAH” comes from Joey on Blossom
8. Two words: Hammer Pants
9. If you ever watched “Fraggle Rock”
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars… and spokey-dokes or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect
11. You can sing the entire theme song to “Duck Tales” (Woo ooh!)
12. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the big screen..and still know the turtles names.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.

17. You played the game “MASH”(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)

18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.
19. L.A. Gear….need I say more?

20. You wanted to change your name to “JEM” in Kindergarten. (She’s Truly Outrageous.)
21. You remember reading Tales of a fourth grade nothing and all The Ramona books.
22. You know the profound meaning of “WAX ON, WAX OFF”
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us…head-to-toe)
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
27. You took lunch boxes to school… and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
29. You still get the urge to say “NOT” after every sentence.

30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.

31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hook up.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
35. After you saw Pee-Wee’s Big Adventure you kept saying “I know you are, but what am I?”
36. You remember “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up”
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.
41. You’ve gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
42. You remember Popples.
43. Don’t worry, be happy

44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do..getting yelled at by younger hip members of the family)
46. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.

47. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.
48. You know what it meant to say “Care Bear Stare!!”
49 You remember watching Rainbow Bright and & My Little Pony Tales
50. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool…and don’t even flinch when people refer to them as “NKOTB”
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on “Saved By The Bell,” The ORIGINAL class.
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
55. You just sang those words to yourself.

56. You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.

57. Homemade Levi shorts.. (the shorter the better)

58. You remember when mullets were cool!
59. You had a mullet!

60. You still sing “We are the World”
61. You tight rolled your jeans.
62. You owned a bannana clip.
63. You remember “Where’s the Beef?”
64. You used to (and probably still do) say “What you talkin’ ’bout Willis?” >

65 You had big hair and you knew how to use it.

66. You’re still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren’t you!

PASS THIS ON TO ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS WHO GREW UP IN THE 80s or Early 90s!!!

ROCK ON!!!

I haven’t been neglecting my online activities entirely. Shadowed Beauty would have been up and running fully today except I’ve run into a snag which has slowed my progress. My ftp isn’t freaking working. Hostcolor, my host, has been trying to help me figure out what it is and I think we’re both thinking it’s my ISP. Which means, I gotta go tackle their tech support and rub their face in the ground.

I haven’t done it yet. I almost don’t want to deal with it at all. There’s still a chance it could be with my host… but I almost want to say not a chance because I’ve never had any problems with them before.

Enough about my ftp woes, what’s been happening?

Work was easier this week. I could actually pick something up and work on it without getting instructions. We mostly have been doing asphalt mix designs. Smelly, smelly stuff. To do an asphalt mix design, we mix various material combinations together, combine it with oil and then test to find which is optimal. My feet were killing me these last few days from walking back and forth, back and forth across a concrete floor. It’s painful when you’re not use to it.

We gained a new engineer (I think she’s an engineer). She’s from Russia and she’s so cool to talk to. She taught herself english on her own and speaks it pretty darn good. We help her periodically when she spins her words backwards or can’t find the right word.

The work problem of the week is that I haven’t gotten my fucking paycheck yet. So, I was suppose to get paid on tuesday, right? The DAY OF, Rox’s sends out a new pay schedule and says we aren’t getting paid today, we’re getting paid on friday. Wtf? Why couldn’t she had sent this notice out like a week prior?? I’m so glad, I didn’t decide to go write some large check only to have it bounce because of the malfunction of our financial department.

So, friday has come and I didn’t have any money show up in my accounts. I’m trying to keep my cool about this. Mostely because I have my paycheck split to go up to my account in Ak and then the rest into another account I opened here. So if I don’t have any money on monday, Rox is going to fit in a box.

In other news, Joe made it successfully through PRC once more. And he’s not even sick this time. He heads to Ranger School once more in probably about two weeks. I really wanted to see him this weekend, but booking now is like taking a loan out for a car. Seriously. It was $2000 to fly this weekend.

Which is frustrating. The purpose of me coming back to the 48 was to be closer to him, thus, shrinking the cost of flights. It’s totally turned out to be opposite of that.

Anyways, I did get my refund for staying in a hotel the first week of getting here. So now I’m off to buy a computer desk because sitting on the floor with a keyboard across your knees gets old after a while, not to mention it’s killing my wrists.