Dream Silently

I’ve taken this last week for myself, to concentrate and reorganize my life, to become more aware of me. It’s actually been kind of rough this month, but I am feeling better today. I’m not sure if its a combination of being frustrated with Joe and I’s relationship and being home sick or if it’s something else that I’m not aware of. There’s just been so many days this month where I’ve found a need to sit and stare into space and just be. Well, either that or curl under a blanket and cry.

They’re fighting over me at work. Well, KE is complaining at least. So, monday, I went back out to Pheonix project to run some permeability tests (we managed to get a hole down to bedrock). The rest of the week, KL had me helping out in the lab. His definition of a week ends on friday.

KE’s definition of a week? Not really that hard to figure out. (His philosophy is live to work.)

Friday, KL spent an hour with me going over things for next week. I’m going to become a liner inspector. Basically, I get to sit/stand around and watch them install liner for an evap pond that started construction when I first started working for SWC. Actually, that very first day I got to go out and see the site just as they were preparing to start taking the area down to grade. One of the things that I started setting up a month ago was an organized listing of all the liner rolls being shipped to site. The listing contains whether or not the liner rolls pass specs and has been certified, etc.

He gave me a listing of rolls that have come in and I need to go through and check off things. To my knowledge, I need to have this done by monday.

I went back to the lab to work on addebergs and drag the question out from KE if he needed me this weekend. So, I actually don’t have a choice in the matter as it is (heaven forbid if KE has to help process soil samples), so I said alright, but I have to finish something else for KL (in my mind it’s priority considering he signs my time sheets). He got pissed, not at me though, at KL.

KE was like, “I thought he said you were mine for this week.” And I just looked at him and was like, “I have been yours this week. And… dude, I’m not some prized dog. I’m just finally getting a chance to finish something that’s been in the works for the last month.”

He didn’t have much to say after that. Of course, the voices in my head were muttering other possible replies, which makes me so glad I have some control over my reactions. But, the real truth? I had no desire to work this weekend. I’ve worked the past three weekends. And it’s not even my turn.

A bit back, we had a meeting about work and such. Mostly, people were being overworked and others weren’t and we needed a more efficient system. So, a schedule was put out. What do I think about it now? I think they should take all the papers printed with that schedule and use it for fire kindling. It was a waste of time.

Anyways, onto more pleasant things.

My father has finally retired after 24 years in the Air Force. Him and Carol leave this friday for OR. I managed to convince him to make Elko part of his schedule. They’re suppose to be in town sometime next sunday. I am so looking forward to seeing him. As with my mother, it’s been four years since I’ve seen him too.

I can’t wait to give him a hard time about all the grey hair he’s sure to have by now.

I’ve been looking into gathering metalsmithing supplies so I can continue practicing. I’m also looking into getting a kiln for my PMC. I find that firing with a torch is a really big pain. A really cool supply site that seems to have all the basic equipment is this place. They sell metal sheets and everything.

Shadowed Beauty is being redesign again. I feel like my sister. I can’t decide how I want things. I’ve switched it over to use joomla, which will make things easy if I want to expand it into more than just a graphics site. I can also control downloads better and eventually even build some kind of community.

However, because I am taking so long, I’m offering this to interested parties, one of the free things that’ll be offered. Meet Callista. The zip file contains a psp tube and a transparent background image of the tube. These are large by the way to make for easier manipulation. They also have minimal postwork. I’m interested in feedback, opinions, and suggestions. Such as, make the images smaller/bigger, add more postwork, etc. Be aware, if you don’t like something, tell me. One thing’s for sure, I won’t be ridiculing you for your opinions or your suggestions.

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