I love…
…drilling. I love it. I love it. I love it. I love it.
I almost wish I was just a tech and didn’t have a degree in engineering where certain levels of responsibilities are expected. Of course, the expectation for my abilities won’t be set or increased until after I’ve been with SWC a few more months. It’s hard to believe it’s been just over three months.
When our VP was out a week or so back, I was in from the field and went to lunch with him. He’s a cool guy. Everybody is dude or hey buddy to him and he’s extremely sociable. He made it very clear that I was apart of the “family” now. Even told me that Joe had to be showed off for approval (in so many words).
What amused me the most was his comment at how young we were (both Joe and I) and how we have so much opportunity out there. I wouldn’t be surprised if he agreed with the same philosophy my old office mate held. She told me to enjoy being without responsibility, to not rush in with too big of a head and take on too much. To not grow old and settled.
But it’s hard to take such advice. I don’t feel young. I feel old. I turn 24 in December. Just thinking about that makes me want to shrivel up inside. Especially when I think about all of the different things I’ve done up to now. And I have to ask myself, am I simply being naive? Have I not had enough fun? Have I been too serious about making a secure place for myself?
Have I been too cautious?
With how quick things have changed for me since finishing school, I feel sort of lost and floundering. I don’t know where I’m aiming to go anymore. Most of my choices or my long term goals are in the air because it rests on events that I’m not even sure are going to happen. And I hate not knowing. I hate not being able to plan.
Why does life have to be so hard?
I guess if life was easy, we would be named Paris Hilton and making naked movies. I keed.
I’ll try not to give advice as I don’t feel qualified. But being where I am in life, I feel I have not done enough and should have accomplished more. Like travelling, family, etc. But then I worry about security and money and how I will support myself in old age. But that is my personality but you have to think about those things. Because who else will think of these things for you?
Advice is good to have to hear what others have gone through and with good judgement, you have to make your own way. Do what’s right for you.
Comment by Thao — November 16, 2006 @ 11:17 pm
I hate those moments when it feels like life is passing you by at the speed of light. All you can do is try to find a balance. And don’t forget to breath.
Comment by Kim — November 17, 2006 @ 11:15 am
I’m back! You know you missed me.
I completely understand what you mean about feeling old. I know you’ll want to kick me for this one when you read it, but I was just thinking about the fact that I’m turning 20 soon. I’m not going to be a teenager any more. I’m not ready to be an adult! Are you kidding me?
Comment by Faythe — November 18, 2006 @ 5:20 am
I feel dumb… I can’t figure out the RSS thing.. AHH
Comment by Faythe — November 18, 2006 @ 5:54 am
Thao - Thanks
I guess my dilemma is that I don’t know what’s right for me at the moment… like one moment I do know and then all of a sudden there’s a bunch of hesitance and questions around whether or not that’s a good move. I’m thinking too much another words 
Kim - Breath… it’s like a repetitive command… I feel like that blonde in this one joke where she walks around with a walkman and on the cassette is a reminder that says breath… I have no idea why I started thinking about that.
Faythe - About time girlie! I was starting to wonder about you. I know what you mean… I guess it depends on when you define adulthood to be… is it 20? Do you have to grow up? Being a kid is ssoo much easier sometimes.
The feed for the RSS on this site is http://dreamsilently.com/feed/ and… don’t ask me why, it works when it wants too and then doesn’t work when it wants to be mean. I haven’t had the time to figure out why…
Comment by ladylore — November 19, 2006 @ 9:35 pm
Life is an intresting thing… if it was too easy, nobody would bother with it, and if it was too hard nobody would bother with it. =p
Comment by Karnov — November 22, 2006 @ 7:53 am
hey,
Hey dorkus!,
Oh please your not old, my co-workers tell me that all the time. I can still outrun them, and if i cant I’ll sure damm well try. Your only as old as you think you are, people who say their old are just lazy! I have a feeling everythings going to come together for you/us, just you wait. A few more months, things have a way of working out…
Im going to be running marathons when im 70!,
joe
p.s. that was my pep talk for the week.
Comment by joe — June 30, 2007 @ 11:41 pm