Dream Silently

So we all know that my mother got gastric bypass back around thanksgiving time frame. As far as gastric is concerned, she’s doing fine with and has lost close to 50 lbs so far. Any difficulties and problems that she may have had concerning the surgery have been standard with the experiences of other patients.

Okay, so why am I worried?

My mother has been off her medication for 3 months and due to a recent conversation has told me she doesn’t have bi-polar.

Then what the hell has she been going through since I was a teenager in high school? You can’t have bipolar one second and then not have it. Of course, I didn’t immediately say that. I actually suggested, which I know to be a possibility, that the chemistry her body is going through at the moment is messing with her levels and have her feeling healthy at the moment. What I’m concerned about is what will happen when her body reaches equilibrium and those current levels go back to being abnormal?

She’s promised me that her doctor is currently only a phone call away. I guess I just need to trust her to make the right decisions and remind myself that I’m the daughter not the mother.

I am so sore… concrete is fucking heavy.

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1. LIVING ARRANGEMENT: Me and My kitty

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW: Just finished Touch the Dark which actually sucked. ::sighs::

3. WHAT’S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD: Optical baby

4. YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME: Scrabble

5. YOUR FAVORITE MAGAZINE: Backpacker or Bead Unique

6. FAVORITE SMELLS: Pumpkin Pie, Rain

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL: The cat deciding to share with me… seriously

8. FAVORITE SOUNDS: Birds, quiet

9. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP: Good Gawd. 5 more minutes please.

10. FAVORITE COLOR: Mauve, Purple

11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE: Phone? What phone? I have a cell phone ring… so, until I finish singing along

12. MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE: Appreciating the things around you

13. WHAT ARE YOU REALLY AFRAID OF: Tight spaces filled with suffocating heat

14. FAVORITE FOODS: Tomatoes!

15. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Swirl… why limit yourself to just one thing?

16. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST: Is it a company rig?

17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL: heh, no… do 4 pillows count?

18. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY: Awesome

19. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR: Toyota Tercel

20. ULTIMATE CAR: It has to be a car? I’ve been eyeing the Toyota Tundra.

21. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE, WHO WOULD IT BE: …Edgar Allen Poe?

22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Budlight

23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN: Saggitarius

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI: Yes, there are starving children in Ethiopia

25. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE: I love my job now.

26. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL: Half full

27. FAVORITE ALL TIME MOVIE: Fifth Element

28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Yep… unless my hands are feeling stiff

29. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED: dust, carpet… the cat periodically

30. FAVORITE NUMBER: 9

31. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH: Hockey

32. SAY ONE THING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS: She’s a sweety, though we haven’t talked much recently.

I heard from Joe. I felt pretty relieved. We could only talk for a few moments though. I guess it’s a lot to call from another country. Boy are we going to become proficient letter writers.

He’s doing fine. They aren’t at their destination yet though. He said he’d call again in a few weeks.

::sigh::

Reaper thinks its fun to attack my feet when they are under the blanket, while I’m trying to sleep in. One of my few precious weekends where I am not required to work and he’s got me up at 7 anyways. ~_~

I’ve mainly got things done, there’s still a mess in the dining room though. Miscellaneous crap mostly. But, at least I can walk around without tripping on something. And its so nice to have a washer and drier. I no longer have to separate time out to go to the laundry mat! Who ever thought that’d be a blessing in disguise?

Joe is now deployed. We must of talked every night this last week for at least 2 hours. I wanted to cry when I tried to call him on thursday only to find that it went straight to his voice mail. Field season cannot start soon enough to keep me distracted. I’m starting up something over at Blogger for him. I’ll release the link as soon as its finished.

Other than that, I’m still a little in awe with myself and I’m trying not to think about all the paperwork I signed to get this place that’s now actually mine.

Well, need to go grocery shopping. Chow! I’ll share pics of Reaper later too