And Then There Was Tomorrow

My body is tired, but my mind is blazing. Stress is like an adrenaline that beats through your veins and, eventually, it sticks to the synapses in the brain, not allowing it to power down and sleep. I’m like a computer that never fully shuts off its motherboard, but is simply in standby awaiting for the energy to burst.

I’m back early from Tonopah (yes, that’s the correct way to spell it… oops). But my day didn’t end with a simple drive home. I ended up at the office for about 2 extra hours that made me want to beat KL into the ground.

I am not a procrastinator (yes, I know, some of you would argue with that). But, I’m not a procrastinator when I know there is impending doom over my head. For some reason KL functions better like that, which really doesn’t work for me. Stress is not friendly too me and when suddenly faced with a lack of data and people to finish it, I panic and feel like withering into a little ball. That’s what happened today. I’m told that all the data I need will be on my desk, ready for me to whip edits up for my field logs and, wait for it, wait for it…

I get there and there’s nothing! He didn’t even have RS come back to the office after the fishing derby to pull that stuff altogether after she told him to tell her if she needed to come back in! (during Expo week, there’s fishing derby and my company was sponsoring part of it.) Granted, what KL failed to realize is that RS hasn’t taken the time to train anyone but herself to enter lab work in. So no one except for the field people and her knew how to finish it up.

T stayed and helped me finish the calcs though. Thank gawd. I about had a melt down due to the fact I was already going on 12+ hours of working and had a really bad night for sleeping. KL is actually lucky I chose to drive back and NOT stay in Tonopah.

There was something that calmed me down, once I made myself breath. I thought about Joe. I kept looking at the ring he gave me that I haven’t taken off once, except to switch it to the other finger in attempt to stop getting flirted with by other guys and it was like a miracle drug. I felt better and happy.

I almost wish it could make me fall asleep. But no, I’m typing a half rambling piece.

A few small things:

I encountered my first snake today, while test pitting. Freaked both me and the contractor out. We were like little sissy girls running away from a rather small snake. Ah, bonding! It decided it needed to ride on the underside of the pickup with me. I believe it was a bull snake, but I’m not sure. I’ll try to research it later.

KE and T want to talk to me about RS’s behavior last week when it came to managing the lab during their absence. They heard about a few things, this includes the argument that me, LN, and her got into about a proctor. T was actually the one that told me what they wanted to talk to me about. KE just said they wanted to talk to me. This should be interesting.

And finally, my mind is slowing down. Must be from the PM pills I just took.

Oh, before I forget, thanks for the comments of support on the last entry. Thankfully, creepy hasn’t called me back.