Dream Silently

The aspirin won’t even take it away. I’m in Tonopah again with the drillers. We’re going to start early and end early for the next few days. The temperatures, especially down south, have been in the triple digits.

I’m gonna die.

This week has been very, very long and I don’t see an end approaching. Hopefully drilling out here will go quick. Theoretically, I shouldn’t be able to keep up out here since we’re going through sands and silts, but we’ll see. They’ve been having problems with the hammer and the helper… he’s new… and really, really slow. There’s been a few times where I’ve fought the urge to hop in. If anyone has watched drilling, they’ll notice that there’s a certain routine that happens. It’s like this symbiotic relationship that keeps things running smoothly.

Not much more has been happening beyond that.

Before I get into mine expo week, I found a source for marriage inspirations. She knows where all the good things are and I couldn’t feel more relieved and said she’d be more than happy to be the wedding enforcer that keeps everything organized and going. And to be honest, I think that’s one of S’s passions. She is constantly the head of some committee organizing something. Now all I need to do is feed this information back to Joe. And get pictures of a possible place and stuff.

So, this week was Mine Expo Week. I’m coming to the conclusion it should be renamed an Excuse to Drink a Lot Week. It felt like I was back in college. Our booth, as a gimmick that I don’t quite understand how we can, gave away margaritas. Not virgin margaritas, mind you. Add in that most of the employees were drinking too and then there’s a never ending stream. That was thursday for me.

I managed to get out of doing anything on Wednesday because I was so tired from the previous day. I actually came home after work and slept all the way to the next day. I did get invited to go to one of our contractor’s barbeques, but I was just too exhausted.

Friday, I ended up not going and helping out with the exhibit. Mostly because I felt sick all day from being out all night before. That and KL is off to Bolivia for about two months. Him and I were busy trying to pull all the loose ends together and figure out how we’re going to finish two reports that should have went out about a month ago. E-mail is a wonderful invention. To top that out, I’m going to be on the road for at least 2 weeks. That’s how long we’ve got the rig for and now they’re trying to pile on however many jobs they can before I’m off to my big job. Mostly because when I’m on that one, they’re not going to be able to pull me for the week long jobs anymore.

So that was mostly friday until the evening. I ended up getting dragged to Tri Con which is like a big end of expo week party bash. Free booze and food. I really can’t complain too much about that.

And now its saturday and I’m sitting with my hair wrapped in a towel and a robe in front of the computer. My last lazy weekend until I probably die from stress the rest of the summer. The project I’m suppose to be going on is to have an accelerated schedule. This probably means 7 days a week with a day off every 10 (mining policy). They’re also talking about running it both days and nights. My biggest question on that is how the hell are we going to staff it.

We’re stretched pretty thin right now.

I guess we’ll figure that out when we reach that road mark.

My body is tired, but my mind is blazing. Stress is like an adrenaline that beats through your veins and, eventually, it sticks to the synapses in the brain, not allowing it to power down and sleep. I’m like a computer that never fully shuts off its motherboard, but is simply in standby awaiting for the energy to burst.

I’m back early from Tonopah (yes, that’s the correct way to spell it… oops). But my day didn’t end with a simple drive home. I ended up at the office for about 2 extra hours that made me want to beat KL into the ground.

I am not a procrastinator (yes, I know, some of you would argue with that). But, I’m not a procrastinator when I know there is impending doom over my head. For some reason KL functions better like that, which really doesn’t work for me. Stress is not friendly too me and when suddenly faced with a lack of data and people to finish it, I panic and feel like withering into a little ball. That’s what happened today. I’m told that all the data I need will be on my desk, ready for me to whip edits up for my field logs and, wait for it, wait for it…

I get there and there’s nothing! He didn’t even have RS come back to the office after the fishing derby to pull that stuff altogether after she told him to tell her if she needed to come back in! (during Expo week, there’s fishing derby and my company was sponsoring part of it.) Granted, what KL failed to realize is that RS hasn’t taken the time to train anyone but herself to enter lab work in. So no one except for the field people and her knew how to finish it up.

T stayed and helped me finish the calcs though. Thank gawd. I about had a melt down due to the fact I was already going on 12+ hours of working and had a really bad night for sleeping. KL is actually lucky I chose to drive back and NOT stay in Tonopah.

There was something that calmed me down, once I made myself breath. I thought about Joe. I kept looking at the ring he gave me that I haven’t taken off once, except to switch it to the other finger in attempt to stop getting flirted with by other guys and it was like a miracle drug. I felt better and happy.

I almost wish it could make me fall asleep. But no, I’m typing a half rambling piece.

A few small things:

I encountered my first snake today, while test pitting. Freaked both me and the contractor out. We were like little sissy girls running away from a rather small snake. Ah, bonding! It decided it needed to ride on the underside of the pickup with me. I believe it was a bull snake, but I’m not sure. I’ll try to research it later.

KE and T want to talk to me about RS’s behavior last week when it came to managing the lab during their absence. They heard about a few things, this includes the argument that me, LN, and her got into about a proctor. T was actually the one that told me what they wanted to talk to me about. KE just said they wanted to talk to me. This should be interesting.

And finally, my mind is slowing down. Must be from the PM pills I just took.

Oh, before I forget, thanks for the comments of support on the last entry. Thankfully, creepy hasn’t called me back.

I don’t even know where to start. First:

Honey, your card is now recharged. I tried to delete the previous entry to protect your pin (not that it would matter since they don’t know what company the card is through), but for some reason, it wouldn’t let me. So it’s passcoded. :D

Next, the first thing that really irritated me this week. I’m sleeping, right? And when I’m sleeping, you sure as hell be Joe calling me at midnight or I’m going to figure out where you live and take your head off. I’m a real grump when I’m woken up in the middle of the night. I actually have smacked Joe without meaning too in a half asleep protest to advances.

I don’t remember what morning it was, but it was around midnight when my cell rings. Drowsily, I did the pawing thing across the nightstand, found the phone, and took a glance at it. The caller I.D. said “private call”. I flipped it open and groggily said hello… I didn’t want to ignore it, it could of been Joe using some other method than a phone card to call me.

Boy was I wrong.

After I said my greeting, I was responded with this:

“Gawd I’m so horny, I could go down all over you.”

My eyebrows and whole face scrunched up and I either said this outloud or thought it, “WHAT THE FUCK?”

First, my pathetically tired brain was trying to place the voice. I didn’t recognize it. The next thing my brain went through was trying to think of any strange guys besides clients and work related people that would call to mess with me. Still couldn’t place the voice.

The conversation between me and this individual slowly went down hill.

His first offense? Trying to pose as my significant other.

His second offense? Continuing to try and convince me that I really was as horny as he was and wanted phone sex.

I think I hung up on him several times. And he kept calling back! Mother fucking bastard. I called him that on the phone too. By our last conversation I informed him that there are 1-800 numbers for his problem as well as internet resources that he could easily jack off too.

After that, I begrudgingly turned my phone off until morning. I usually leave it on in case the sweetheart calls.

After that, my week went up and then down.

My patience with RS being a know it all has been running thin. First, she micromanages people when she is only a level 1 tech. Second, that’s poor managing and KE will be lucky if the staff for the lab stick around this summer as a result. I already know from casual talk how the highers feel about her. I tried my hardest to explain this to her and that people are going to give her problems if she continuously watches them like a hawk and treats them with distrust. Our goal is not to find every little problem in a higher. Our goal is to help them fix those problems so that they can perform better at the labwork and not make them feel degraded. What irritates me the most is that she ALWAYS has to be right. Why does this piss me off so much? I’m the one with the fucking degree. She just started doing things with soil barely 6 months ago. That doesn’t make her a freaking expert!

At least I am humble enough to admit when I’m wrong. I actually cannot wait until I’m on my big job and I don’t have to be around the office as often since I’ll be able to do most of my work at the trailer for the job (lab/office is on site in a trailer). The other thing that irritated me was that we had training on friday to run the nuclear gauge.

She’s there for maybe a total of 2 hours if you add it all together. THE OFFICE WILL NOT COLLAPSE IF YOU AREN’T THERE. I personally think she shouldn’t be badged up as a result. Or we should have held the training in a different location away from the office and thus distractions. If I get asked my opinion on it, that’s what I’m telling them. The company paid this guy good money for us to be trained. That means you better fucking be at that training and not multitasking.

Doesn’t matter how boring it is.

If anyone should have been leaving frequently, it should have been me and LN. We’re the ones working with clients and have major project deadlines that can’t be met without us completing certain parts.

::le sigh:: I just don’t know sometimes.

Today, has been an okay day. I’ve been relaxing, cleaning, rearranging furniture, and watching Stargate Atlantis Season 2. I’ll be headed south to Tonopa on Monday for like 2 days I think. And then I’ll be back in Elko helping with the Mine Expo in between proposals, reports, and anything else the two PEs above me can think of.

Its actually kind of nice to have two to go to for small tasks between my bigger ones.

And now, I think its time to go back to being a bum!